Yesterday was a struggle to get the right medicine that will treat my pain. Last night was a very long and difficult night because of the pain. However, beginning this morning the doctors have prescribed some different medicines that have helped relieve some of the pain. While this was great for the morning, this afternoon as I am writing this the sever pain has returned.
I have found comfort through prayer and have felt the love that the savior has for me. I am reminded of the paintings of Greg Olsen. This is one of my favorites:
I was able to eat some soup today. It's so much better to eat than to be fed by the tube! Thanks for all of your kindness and support.
I'm glad that you were able to have Jo and Sandy with you today during church. I have to tease John because he has never been really good in hospitals and so I had plenty of time alone in the hospital. He was great in so many ways, but visiting hospitals were never his cup of tea.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about your pain. I think that it is particularly difficult when it is not something that you have had to deal with a lot in your life. I have had serious pain in my body for years that never lets up. Sometimes it is so draining because I just can't fight it, but most of the time because it is something I deal with regularly I seem to manage it pretty well. I know when John gets hit with a terrible headache or his sciatic nerve acts up it is just awful for him. The difference between good days and bad days is such a dramatic difference that it hits him harder than it does for me.
It will take some time but I know it will get better. The Bishop said that you may be able to come home this week. Being home is just a lift from staying in a hospital and even when the pain continues, it's just easier to deal with in your own home.
Thinking good thoughts for you!
Eating already?! Mrs. Forsyth you are a rockstar! I'm so sorry you are still in so much pain, but I am SO happy you got to eat!! I'm thinking of you every day, and will continue to send positive energy your way.
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Cancer is so limited...
It cannot cripple love
It cannot shatter hope
It cannot corrode faith
It cannot destroy peace
It cannot kill friendship
It cannot suppress memories
It cannot silence courage
It cannot invade the soul
It cannot steal eternal life
It cannot conquer the spirit"
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Dear Marilynn,
ReplyDeleteWhat great news that you were able to eat some soup!
So sorry to hear about your terrible pain. Our constant wish is that your recovery will move along quickly. It is amazing all that you have done already, but in the moment I am sure it feels like time stands still and things are going slow.
Know that there are so many well wishes and prayers on your behalf.
We are so grateful for you! Love, Melissa
Marilynn,
ReplyDeleteProgress is good ... even if it feels like baby steps. So glad you could eat on your own! You're in our prayers daily and we hope you feel stronger and better each day.
Our love,
Eric & Kathy Gustafson & family
I have been praying for you all day today. I wore my J. Crew outfit that we bought together this summer. I loved wearing it today because it made me think of you. Your great love and abundance. I told my friends that it reminded me of you.
ReplyDeleteI love you. I am so grateful to be your sister. You teach me beautiful lessons each day.
Progress is Heavenly Fathers plan. You are making progress. Way to go.
I love you,
Kathleen
Marilynn, I am looking forward to seeing your awesome outfits at church - no pressure. I am sure you already have a pair, but I am going to ask my students where they buy thier funky shoe laces so when you lace up you can have some crazy laces to wear!
ReplyDeleteYou are in my prayers and thoughts! Thanks for writing this blog, it is very insightful to how truely awesome you are as you deal with this pain and how important great support is!
Like the previous post - I love baby laughing videos... here is another
Karen
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RP4abiHdQpc
God bless you...and thank you. You have inspired me to start running again. Literally and metaphorically.
ReplyDeleteDear Marilynn,
ReplyDeleteYou are making real progress despite what I am sure is excruciating pain. It sounds as though you may be making some progress at least some of the time with reference to pain management. I am so pleased to learn that you should have been able to eat food. That news is really great.
I was starting to organize my office a bit (a fact that will thrill, Julie, who worries about these kinds of things), and I ran across the November 2013 Ensign. I happened to turn to the page containing that remarkable talk by Elder Holland, "Like a Broken Vessel." I wrote down a quote from it, which reads, "So how do you respond when mental or emotional [or physical] challenges confront you or those you love? Above all, never lose faith in your Father in Heaven, who loves you more than you can comprehend. As President Monson said to the Relief Society sisters so movingly last Saturday evening: 'That love never changes. . . . It is there for you when you are sad or happy, discouraged or hopeful. God's love is there for you whether or not you feel you deserve [it]. It is simply always there.' Never, ever doubt that, and never harden your heart. . . . Believe in miracles. I have seen so many of them come when every other indication would say that hope was lost. Hope is never [emphasis added] lost. If those miracles do not come soon or fully or seemingly at all, remember the Savior's own anguished example: if the bitter cup does not pass, drink it and be strong, trusting in happier days ahead." Those happier days are soon to come for you, I am confident. The Bishop announced in Sacrament Meeting yesterday that you may even be released to come home from the hospital this week, which I am sure you will welcome as shall we.
Kindest regards,
John
Pain is the most unwelcome guest, but one day you will wake up and realize it is gone. On that day we will all be thankful, but in the meantime we continue to pray that you can get some relief -- even if it is occasional . Love to you. Patty
ReplyDeleteMarilynn, I am so glad you are sharing your experiences on your path to recovery! I have no doubt that you are the toughest lady on your floor, maybe in the whole hospital. I am grateful for your example, thank you for it. The kids continue to pray for you and we hope that you get some relief from the pain, as Patty mentioned. Love, Alisha
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ReplyDeleteI am so grateful that you are sharing your blog with all of us. We love you and miss you keenly while you are away from us each week. For so long, many of us have relied on your great strength and sweet smile and we love you for it! Now, it is time for us to be strong for you. I'm so impressed with your strength and honesty as you battle the fear and pain of cancer. You are in our prayers and thoughts constantly.
This is from Elder Holland. It's short and sweet. "If you are lonely, please know you can find comfort. If you are discouraged, please know you can find hope. If you are poor in spirit, please know you can be strengthened. If you feel you are broken, please know you can be mended."
You will get through this very difficult trial. And as amazing as you are, you will be an even better person for it. We love you!
Danni and Family
Thank goodness you can eat again even if it is just soup. That alone will lift your spirits and help you to feel more normal. Next big step towards normality is coming home. Just think, one week down. In three more weeks you will be laughing and running and bringing hope and brightness back into the Ward Family.
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